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This is hard to write. It was hard to do.
I've made a decision that will disappoint some of you. Others won't care a wit.
I'm going to have to stop doing the recaps for the NA Qaf.
I understand that I should never have even started doing the season 4 recaps - I shouldn't have begun them, only to pull out a month into it.
I can only say I'm sorry.
They are just getting to be too much. Overwhelming actually. I get off from work, stressed out and tired - and immediately I start thinking of the recaps. When I don't start doing them right away, I feel guilty. The longer it takes me to get them done - the worse I feel. The guiltier I get. And it's mostly self-imposed.
But the whole process is stiffling. I can't write on anything else without feeling bad. And my muse is hybernating like a fiend.
The recaps shouldn't be this stressful. They started off being fun.
The crux of this is, I enjoy them. I enjoy having created them. And I'm upset at myself about quitting. But I have too... Even if I were to trudge through, they would suffer. And I never wanted them to reflect poorly.
I still enjoy the show. I just don't enjoy the 'work' that this entertainment has become. Two jobs is too much...
Again, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to be a shmuck.
But here I am....
xof
I've made a decision that will disappoint some of you. Others won't care a wit.
I'm going to have to stop doing the recaps for the NA Qaf.
I understand that I should never have even started doing the season 4 recaps - I shouldn't have begun them, only to pull out a month into it.
I can only say I'm sorry.
They are just getting to be too much. Overwhelming actually. I get off from work, stressed out and tired - and immediately I start thinking of the recaps. When I don't start doing them right away, I feel guilty. The longer it takes me to get them done - the worse I feel. The guiltier I get. And it's mostly self-imposed.
But the whole process is stiffling. I can't write on anything else without feeling bad. And my muse is hybernating like a fiend.
The recaps shouldn't be this stressful. They started off being fun.
The crux of this is, I enjoy them. I enjoy having created them. And I'm upset at myself about quitting. But I have too... Even if I were to trudge through, they would suffer. And I never wanted them to reflect poorly.
I still enjoy the show. I just don't enjoy the 'work' that this entertainment has become. Two jobs is too much...
Again, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to be a shmuck.
But here I am....
xof
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