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Title: “Encompassed…” - Author's Notes
Author: xof
Feedback: xof1013@gmail.com
Rating: NC-17 (Very, very….lol)
Pairing: Brian/Michael, Declan/Ashton (OMC/OMC)
Genre: First Time, Drama, Angst
Disclaimer: Don’t own ‘em, but damn it’s fun imagining I do…. My two OMC’s are mine, even though Alexis would like it very much if I’d allow them to visit her house…lol.
Status: Complete, but will be posted in 11 parts. (over 126 pages total)
Archive: ATP, Always, yes.
Summary: An exploration of Michael’s submissive nature, and Brian’s resulting claim. With a little help from two new friends….
Author Notes -
Part One:
a) Brian and Michael seem to have Babylon traditions, meaning nights where they HAVE to be there together. Like Studs and Suds…. (Remember Brian’s disappointment when Michael missed out on that one?) But I always wondered about the Leather Ball. What if that was the one night a year where Michael always bowed out, or had an excuse not to go? Which was the springboard for this fic…..
b) Yes, I am aware that this is the third story I’ve built off of the Leather Ball episode…lol. Can you name the other two US Qaf Fics I’ve done around it??? And the pairings….lol.
c) Brian’s brown leather pants - kinda inspired by a pair worn by Jim Morrison. Michael’s - I actually had written that part WELLLLLLL before Hal Sparks wore leather jean-cut pants on Halloween…lol, but when he did, I was sooooooooooo happy to have a visual…THUD.
d) Yes, Michael’s cuffs are inspired by the ones that Hal Sparks wears. Sighhh….
e) By now, you may have guessed that the two demonstrations at the Leather Ball were opposing circumstances - the kind of pain-play Michael did not want, and the kind of submission he did. Even from the start, it wasn’t about pain. It was the giving over….
f) Pay attention, in this part and throughout the story, to when Brian’s changes up using “Mikey” and “Michael” - quite often, it’s done that way deliberately for emotional emphasis.
Part Two:
a) The name Dominion seemed to fit…and was not meant as a religious reference.
b) I touched on a supposed past experience for Brian in this chapter; mostly because there was a tone in his voice when the Meat Hook was referenced in the premier episode of US QAF, and his own stories of having had sex with a trick who liked to be spanked…lol. Plus the tying up Ben at the white party…thud.
Part Three:
a) Why not just get right to the point…lol - hence, “Take off your clothes…” sighhhh…. Plus, have you noticed in a lot of Michael’s sex/love scenes - he’s the one talking off his own clothes. So why not have Brian do it for him….yum.
b) I tried to convey it as best (and with as much angst) as I could, but let me truly clarify. Michael was not attacked during his one-off with Dylan. He was roughed up, manhandled - but not forced. He went into it, albeit very naively, with a recklessness that was ill advised - as he’ll later learn. He was fortunate not to have had a worse experience than he did; and this Brian knows well.
c) I admit that I have serious issues with my characters getting all shaggy and orgasmic in front of mirrors…lol. This is just another example of that. I’m a voyeur, through and through. And with such pretty boys to work with, why not?
d) I believe Michael’s interest in bondage is canon. As we learned from his night with Ben. So is Brian’s…lol, as we saw from his White Party shag with Ben. So the belt is just the first of my forays into their mutual enjoyment of giving / receiving control.
e) Brian’s possessiveness of Michael, and/or his protective instincts towards Michael are also canon. So many factors like that just seemed to flow and meld brilliantly with this story’s themes - how could I not use them?
f) Soooo, you think Brian would never seek help from a third party when his friend and/or lover is feeling emotional/mental pain? Well, you’re wrong. It’s also canon. He did ask for advice for Justin’s bashing recovery, and I have him returning to ask for more advice from the very same character here. This also makes Brian’s choice to take Michael to see a certain Irishman in part 4, more plausible in my mind.
g) Sighhh, Brian dressing Michael. Hehe… I loved seeing it on the show, and had to use it in this story. More than once…THUD.
Part Four:
a) I had intended all along to have a couple already in a relationship, and the scene - to which Brian and Michael could look for guidance, etc. And while this is not a crossover, I couldn’t resist using the physical representations of Craig Kelly and Aidan Gillen to work off…. Soooo, take a look here if you’ve missed the link before to see the four pictures I used to base Ashton Forster and Declan Rai on -
http://www.qaf-fic.com/xof/pics/pics.html
b) So my beta - hiya, Alexis! - fell in love with Ashton from the get go…. Probably from the instant he told Declan to hush over the intercom…lol. Though truly, I tried to make them both equals in the affections of the readers - Ashton’s mouth got him a lot more focus… Which is fine; I was shaking my own head and laughing at half the things he said - wondering where in me that all came from…lol.
c) Here’s some fun info - I spent a lot of time coming up with the character’s names. And the original title of the story played into why I chose the way I did. For months I thought I was going to call the story, “Misha.” Misha being a Russian variation on Michael. It was supposed to be Michael’s scene name, suggested by Declan - who I’d decided was half Irish and half Russian. So while I did keep Declan’s origins, I lost the Misha references - playing more on Mikey and Michael to convey emotions and importance to each scene.
d) Declan Rai = Declan is an Irish name, anglicized version of the Gaelic Deaglán, and I liked the nickname of Dec. Declan means “goodness.” Rai is a Russian surname - it means “paradise.” Do you get the irony? He’s a sexual dominant that’s all goodness and paradise…lol.
e) Ashton Forster = I chose Forster for his last name as a tribute to E.M. Forster - the author of “Maurice” - “A Room With A View” - “Howard’s End” - etc…. His first name was harder to choose, but then I came across this page and it was astonishingly appropriate for him:
http://www.wooddragonarts.freeserve.co.uk/Ash%20Nuin%20Symbolism.htm
How could I not use the name Ashton after reading that, using his nickname Ash to go with Declan’s Dec?
f) I wanted Michael to hold onto his fire, even as he gave over to Brian. Which is why I had him getting so pissed off at the thought that Brian was going to hand him over to Declan. He’s not supposed to lose himself in this story; instead he finds a strength in learning more of who he truly is. Knowledge is power, after all.
g) Yes, Declan made a Spiderman reference…lol. Can you pick it out? I knew that you could. (That’s an ode to both Michael and Hal’s interests in the Spiderman comic books and movies.)
h) You probably noticed, but in case not - I harkened back to Brian’s answer to Michael’s “I don’t know where the fuck I belong” - the kiss that ended with Brian saying, “There, that’s where.” Sighhh… Not only does the man love Michael, he flat out tells him he belongs to/with him. Thud….
i) Michael’s repeating of Brian’s love mantra - “Brian doesn’t do love” - isn’t meant to mean he thinks Brian doesn’t love him. He just says it without thinking, because it is Brian’s broken record. It’s Brian’s journey in this story to make Michael (and himself) understand that it has never held true between them.
j) The surveys are used by serious scene players - and they cover both likes/dislikes and limits. I was going to include them more fully, but realized that I didn’t need to in the long run. Why talk about it when I could show it? Lol…. But know that a lot of what happens in the fic is dictated by the answers that both Brian and Michael gave to Declan and Ashton.
k) I always wanted Ashton to be an artist, but never wanted anyone to think I was setting him up as a Justin substitute - for “Rage,” etc. Hence why I chose sculpture as his chosen medium. (I’m an art historian, btw - and his sculptures are largely based on Michelangelo’s unfinished slave sculptures. The ones that look almost like the men are emerging from the marble by force of will, even while restrained from the freedom they seem to seek.)
l) Yes, some would think letting Brian play with him in front of Declan would be out of character for Michael. Here’s why I don’t think it’s such a problem. They are doing so for a specific reason - not on a whim. Brian certainly would have no qualms about public sex considering his history; in fact it would excite him. As long as it’s on his terms, as I have shown with his agreement with Declan that Michael not be touched in a sexual way by anyone but Brian. As for Michael, yes - it’s outside the norm - but so is the entire situation. And he has himself had sex in front of others, not being a stranger to Babylon’s backroom too.
m) This moment of play before Declan is meant to enforce Brian’s dominance, but also to show that ultimately Michael has the ultimate control. It’s called a safe word, darlins’…. And is a must have in any kind of scene play. As for why I chose “Zephyr” - think of what it means. How could I not?
n) The rooftop scene is a favorite of mine, and of soooo many others. I wanted to reference back to it, and this moment in the story seemed the most appropriate.
o) And never let it be said that Michael isn’t as into sex as Brian…lol. Once he gets the chance, he’s frisky and imaginative as anyone could be. And as naughty, as Brian finds out once Declan leaves.
Part Five:
a) Why does Brian answer the phone while he’s being ravaged by Michael? For the same reason he often answers the door naked….lol He ALWAYS DOES on the show…lol. Plus, it was fun to write.
b) It’s also fun to see how well Declan recognized himself in Brian, and vice-versa
c) Michael’s joke about his not having any more reservations about sticking his hands down Brian’s pants now - remember, due to my timeline - the whole cell phone down Brian’s pants on the way to the underwear party never happens - but it was too good a moment not to play off of….lol.
d) Want to see what Declan’s house looks like? Havenshire? Here you go…. (Just picture it in winter, rather than spring.)
http://www.rosecityrealty.com/images/residential/744910.jpg
e) As you can tell from the get go after they enter the house, they are not in Kansas anymore….lol. And while yes, I do have them doing wild and erotic things together - remember, it’s all about intimacy, love and experiencing new things within the realm of them still being Brian and Michael. Declan and Ash.
f) Naked Michael… It’s addictive…hehe. And very much a device on my part to open up his sense of inhibition, letting him feel the role as it were of a submissive. But in a way that never denigrates him in any of their eyes. If anything, the nudity leaves him in a position to be admired - literally and figuratively.
Part Six:
a) Let the games begin…lol. And they do, all this voyeurism and exhibitionism was fun to work with - but like Declan said - I wanted Brian and Michael’s first full sex scene to be about just them. Hence the “begin with love” conversation.
b) Brian’s cream leather and snake print silk…lol. He looked utterly edible in that outfit during the political fundraiser diner at David’s house. So I had to have him wear it again. For Michael…. THUD.
c) Don’t you love having a male character’s ability to last through two orgasms without losing his erection be a part of canon? Lol… I know Michael’s now appreciative. Sigh….
d) The kitchen scene was fun - because Michael’s been bad…lol, and is caught out doing it. And because I wanted there to be more one on one dialogue between him and Declan.
e) Can you guess why I had Michael tell Declan that Brian likes apple jelly? Lol…. Come on, it’s canon!
f) Brian’s robe - it’s one we’ve seen him in on the show. Luvly….
g) I have a tendency to sneak in Shakespeare quotes in a lot of my fics. Did you catch that? Lol…
h) Why a sauna? Because you have four naked men who all look fabulous sweaty and hot…haha.
i) I had the characters explain the tattoos I picked, but just wanted to add that I had a lot of fun creating them in my head. The permanence of their claim marked forever in their skin. It’s a beautiful thought.
j) I’ve been asked, “Why Darkling?” Welllll…. I liked the sound of it, and while it was the title of a movie that Aidan stared in, trust me when I say it isn’t meant as a reference to the creature in that film. It’s meant just as Declan describes - a nickname that originates from Ashton’s “other-worldly” sexual talents and his natural “saucy sprite” personality.
k) The hair washing? Come on…lol. With dark curls like that, it’s a given!!! Plus, we all seem to have a thing for that man’s hair. The massage? There are eastern forms of massages that incorporate the use of the entire body to use as a tool, instead of just the arms and hands, but really - the full effect can’t be done unless it gets sexual, imo…lol. So, considering Michael’s last two beaus were a chiropractor and a man eyebrow-deep in eastern culture - I figured between the two, Michael would have learned a thing or two about how to drive Brian wild.
Part Seven:
a) I had fun letting Michael and Brian get giddy in the snow. Especially knowing what Michael was wearing underneath his clothes….
b) I’m a huge fan of Laurell Hamilton’s Anita Blake books. And yes, I do realize that one of THE best (THUD!!!!) characters in her books is named Asher…lol. That was an afterthought which had me going, “OH Yeah!” So considering his name, and the themes you’ll find in her book, “Narcissus in Chains” - it seemed the perfect book for Ashton to be reading. (((I highly recommend the series!)))
c) Brian offers Michael an out before their first “scene” together. Which actually is only one of several opportunities that Michael is given to change his mind, halt things, etc. The point? It’s his choice that drives things.
d) So the secret’s out… The absolute worse that I have happen between Brian and Michael, isn’t bad at all…lol. So for anyone who didn’t read the fic because they thought it was going to be this extreme venture, here’s the proof in action that it is and was always going to be a journey of eroticism and sensuality. For those who went with my craziness - I’m thankful you held the faith.
e) I just had to add more back story to Michael’s first trip to the baths. Hence the blindfold discussion with Brian. Ahhhh….
f) I had a dream about the scene where Brian’s dressing a sleepy Michael in his sleep pants before leaving for the day. It just struck me as this simple, but deeply intimate and caring act - so I hope I brought it across as such.
g) Hehe…. Sooooo, now you know why Brian really went back to Pittsburgh. The office problems were real, but quickly dealt with. Sneaky, wasn’t he?
h) I wanted to give Ashton a hobby that he found as much joy and giddiness in as Michael with his comics. So it was a completely perfect choice for him to be a Star Trek fan…lol. (Trekkies UNITE!!!) Can’t you just see Ashton dragging Declan through a Star Trek convention? Like Michael does Brian through Comicon?
Part Eight:
a) Snicker, I challenge ANY of you to picture Aidan Gillen dressed up like Star Trek: The Next Generation’s Deanna Troi and NOT fall down laughing…lol.
b) Here was a chance to give you all a bit more insight into how Dec and Ash interact together. And to see how Ashton causes a lot of his own discipline. Sooooo, here’s your first toy link…lol. This is the chastity belt that Declan made Ashton wear. (Can you imagine him having to just sit there while Michael was modeling? Hehe) -
http://www.babeland.com/page/TIB/PROD/bdsm-bondage/DX490340
c) Declan’s photography - I always planned him doing a portrait of Michael, but I definitely didn’t want to present him as some nudie letch of a photographer…lol. He’s serious about his hobby, and he’s good at what he does. So I created the shadow play theme, which then lead to me realizing just how I wanted him to shoot Michael.
d) Had to have Michael initiate the request for his photograph to be made. Again, this reinforces his choice in all this. And it ultimately made me think about Brian’s taking pictures of Michael for his internet dating ad…lol. Considering the fun Michael knows Brian had with that, I thought he’d think this form of gift giving appropriate.
e) The love scene between Declan and Ash was a gift. For me, for Alexis and for the readers who fell in love with them both. But I did it with a switch, for Michael’s benefit. In order to challenge his notions of what Dominance and submission could mean in a loving long term relationship, Michael witnesses Declan bottoming from the top. Bareback… Which considering they’ve been together running on ten years, it gives them a level of freedom that Brian and Michael would frankly have to earn together - in trust, love and restraint from temptation.
f) Brian’s return - his witnessing the culmination of Dec/Ash together, and seeing how it affects both Michael and himself. Remember (for those of you who’ve read to the end) - he’s been busy reconstructing he and Michael’s lives back home, so coming back and walking in on that - it goes a long way to explaining why he wants something of Michael inside himself in turn.
g) Yes, folks. Brian gave Michael a command before he left, with included being physically prepared for him no matter when he was to return. So, what does that mean? hehe It means that the entire time Michael was posing for Declan, he was slicked and lubed inside for Brian. Now, doesn’t that add just a little bit more oomph to the impact of the final portrait? I know it does for Brian…lol.
h) The return of Michael’s cuffs - I wanted Michael to get a little of his own back, so why not wake up Brian by giving him his wakeup call - AFTER Michael’s tied his hands down…lol.
i) Brian’s feeling the full impact of his choice. Remember in the moment he‘s telling Michael he‘s going to collar him, he’s already met with Andre to design the piece. And set the motions into play for moving Michael into what will be their home….
j) Had to add in some sweet humor in all this seriousness and sensuality - which means? Yes, Ashton once again comes a knocking….lol. I’d planned on having a scene dinner, and just the image of Michael’s face when Ash throws in that question about ever having played naked waiter was just TOO funny.
k) The talk - I didn’t want to shy away from the impact of how each of them are responding to the changes between them. But how do you get them talking about it, and still keep their pov’s working with canon? I can only hope it worked.
Part Nine:
a) The boys needed some time together…meaning Michael and Ash. And boy oh boy did I give it to them…lol. This part was meant to be fantastical, and fun. So while the costumes may appear over the top to some, believe me - compared to some scene events, I was being tame!
b) More hinting between Brian and Declan about the items being created by Andre. And a moment of reflection on Brian’s part about what Michael means to him in the face of what others will say about their relationship. And like he says, ultimately Michael is his family - more than all the rest.
c) I put a lot of detail into Michael and Ashton’s individual looks, so I wanted to give you a more in-depth look-see as to some of the items they are wearing… Or rather, the pieces that inspired them. Some of which I embellished on for more added effect. So here goes:
Michael -
The underbust corset:
http://www.dracinabox.com/pvcunderbustcorset.htm
The O-Ring Posture collar:
http://www.absolutedanny.com/product_info.php?products_id=471
Ashton -
The leather gladiator skirt:
http://www.absolutedanny.com/product_info.php?products_id=212
And the inspiration for his painted on arm/neck tattoo:
http://home.earthlink.net/~markstewart/DuskPage.tattoo.html.
(Make sure the period “.“ is on the end of “html.” or you won’t be able to see the page.)
d) Had to have Declan being all masterly after dinner, didn’t I? Lol…. Plus, he DID say he was an exhibitionist - THUD!
e) Michael’s turning Brian’s command back on him, telling Brian to feel him inside. The two of them in front of the fire…. With Michael looking the way he does…. Yummy! Lol… Heck, even I enjoyed that… And that means…. It’s almost collar time!!!
Part Ten:
a) Isn’t Ash the cutest? Even if I do say so myself…. “Elmo” indeed…lol.
b) Wanted to include a mention of Michael’s continuing dream for “Rage.” And just think, the whole time he’s playing with clay and writing - Brian’s doing what in the Pits??? Lol…
c) The collaring - I could have gone the formal route, and had a ritualized ceremony. But I decided they needed something familiar and true to who they are together, hence the return where the story began.
d) The collar - it’s actually similar to Native American necklaces. The platinum links stacked three high, attached to leather lengths. And the shells - how could I not reclaim the bracelet we all know and love?
e) The cuff - Michael deserved to have Brian wear a mark of their claim, too!
f) The toy…lol. We all know from the show that Brian’s a big fan of sex toys; ever one to enjoy adding some spice to things. Wanna take a look at what Brian’s teasing Michael with the next morning?
http://www.babeland.com/page/TIB/PROD//TG355190
g) Declan’s reference to the ash wood paddles…lol. How could I resist? It was so appropriate, I had to include it.
h) I was looking forward to Michael’s giving Brian his gift… But then I remembered it was my job to actually WRITE it…lol. There are moments in creating a story when you feel like you’d much rather be reading it, rather than having to smooth it out line by line. So I think I got it right, let’s hope so.
Part Eleven:
a) The goodbye between our couples - it’s not an ending, it’s a beginning. They have every intention of remaining friends. Can’t you just imagine them all hitting Woody’s or Babylon together? Meeting Temmet? And saints preserve them, Debbie and Vic? Lol…
b) Just when you thought it was safe to visit the local diner…lol.
c) The humor in the hallway to Brian’s loft - it was just running through my head and I had to go with it. Plus, who doesn’t like a sexually demanding Michael?
d) Surprise!!! Welcome to the home of the Kinney-Novotny’s…. Do you like the decor? I started with the basic layout:
http://www.angelfire.com/home/qaf/theloft.html
And then worked to incorporate Michael’s style and all that we knew about his stuff together in with Brian’s world. I quite liked the result in my mind’s eye. Did you?
I hope you enjoyed the story, the journey and the ride.
Hugs
Xof
Author: xof
Feedback: xof1013@gmail.com
Rating: NC-17 (Very, very….lol)
Pairing: Brian/Michael, Declan/Ashton (OMC/OMC)
Genre: First Time, Drama, Angst
Disclaimer: Don’t own ‘em, but damn it’s fun imagining I do…. My two OMC’s are mine, even though Alexis would like it very much if I’d allow them to visit her house…lol.
Status: Complete, but will be posted in 11 parts. (over 126 pages total)
Archive: ATP, Always, yes.
Summary: An exploration of Michael’s submissive nature, and Brian’s resulting claim. With a little help from two new friends….
Author Notes -
Part One:
a) Brian and Michael seem to have Babylon traditions, meaning nights where they HAVE to be there together. Like Studs and Suds…. (Remember Brian’s disappointment when Michael missed out on that one?) But I always wondered about the Leather Ball. What if that was the one night a year where Michael always bowed out, or had an excuse not to go? Which was the springboard for this fic…..
b) Yes, I am aware that this is the third story I’ve built off of the Leather Ball episode…lol. Can you name the other two US Qaf Fics I’ve done around it??? And the pairings….lol.
c) Brian’s brown leather pants - kinda inspired by a pair worn by Jim Morrison. Michael’s - I actually had written that part WELLLLLLL before Hal Sparks wore leather jean-cut pants on Halloween…lol, but when he did, I was sooooooooooo happy to have a visual…THUD.
d) Yes, Michael’s cuffs are inspired by the ones that Hal Sparks wears. Sighhh….
e) By now, you may have guessed that the two demonstrations at the Leather Ball were opposing circumstances - the kind of pain-play Michael did not want, and the kind of submission he did. Even from the start, it wasn’t about pain. It was the giving over….
f) Pay attention, in this part and throughout the story, to when Brian’s changes up using “Mikey” and “Michael” - quite often, it’s done that way deliberately for emotional emphasis.
Part Two:
a) The name Dominion seemed to fit…and was not meant as a religious reference.
b) I touched on a supposed past experience for Brian in this chapter; mostly because there was a tone in his voice when the Meat Hook was referenced in the premier episode of US QAF, and his own stories of having had sex with a trick who liked to be spanked…lol. Plus the tying up Ben at the white party…thud.
Part Three:
a) Why not just get right to the point…lol - hence, “Take off your clothes…” sighhhh…. Plus, have you noticed in a lot of Michael’s sex/love scenes - he’s the one talking off his own clothes. So why not have Brian do it for him….yum.
b) I tried to convey it as best (and with as much angst) as I could, but let me truly clarify. Michael was not attacked during his one-off with Dylan. He was roughed up, manhandled - but not forced. He went into it, albeit very naively, with a recklessness that was ill advised - as he’ll later learn. He was fortunate not to have had a worse experience than he did; and this Brian knows well.
c) I admit that I have serious issues with my characters getting all shaggy and orgasmic in front of mirrors…lol. This is just another example of that. I’m a voyeur, through and through. And with such pretty boys to work with, why not?
d) I believe Michael’s interest in bondage is canon. As we learned from his night with Ben. So is Brian’s…lol, as we saw from his White Party shag with Ben. So the belt is just the first of my forays into their mutual enjoyment of giving / receiving control.
e) Brian’s possessiveness of Michael, and/or his protective instincts towards Michael are also canon. So many factors like that just seemed to flow and meld brilliantly with this story’s themes - how could I not use them?
f) Soooo, you think Brian would never seek help from a third party when his friend and/or lover is feeling emotional/mental pain? Well, you’re wrong. It’s also canon. He did ask for advice for Justin’s bashing recovery, and I have him returning to ask for more advice from the very same character here. This also makes Brian’s choice to take Michael to see a certain Irishman in part 4, more plausible in my mind.
g) Sighhh, Brian dressing Michael. Hehe… I loved seeing it on the show, and had to use it in this story. More than once…THUD.
Part Four:
a) I had intended all along to have a couple already in a relationship, and the scene - to which Brian and Michael could look for guidance, etc. And while this is not a crossover, I couldn’t resist using the physical representations of Craig Kelly and Aidan Gillen to work off…. Soooo, take a look here if you’ve missed the link before to see the four pictures I used to base Ashton Forster and Declan Rai on -
http://www.qaf-fic.com/xof/pics/pics.html
b) So my beta - hiya, Alexis! - fell in love with Ashton from the get go…. Probably from the instant he told Declan to hush over the intercom…lol. Though truly, I tried to make them both equals in the affections of the readers - Ashton’s mouth got him a lot more focus… Which is fine; I was shaking my own head and laughing at half the things he said - wondering where in me that all came from…lol.
c) Here’s some fun info - I spent a lot of time coming up with the character’s names. And the original title of the story played into why I chose the way I did. For months I thought I was going to call the story, “Misha.” Misha being a Russian variation on Michael. It was supposed to be Michael’s scene name, suggested by Declan - who I’d decided was half Irish and half Russian. So while I did keep Declan’s origins, I lost the Misha references - playing more on Mikey and Michael to convey emotions and importance to each scene.
d) Declan Rai = Declan is an Irish name, anglicized version of the Gaelic Deaglán, and I liked the nickname of Dec. Declan means “goodness.” Rai is a Russian surname - it means “paradise.” Do you get the irony? He’s a sexual dominant that’s all goodness and paradise…lol.
e) Ashton Forster = I chose Forster for his last name as a tribute to E.M. Forster - the author of “Maurice” - “A Room With A View” - “Howard’s End” - etc…. His first name was harder to choose, but then I came across this page and it was astonishingly appropriate for him:
http://www.wooddragonarts.freeserve.co.uk/Ash%20Nuin%20Symbolism.htm
How could I not use the name Ashton after reading that, using his nickname Ash to go with Declan’s Dec?
f) I wanted Michael to hold onto his fire, even as he gave over to Brian. Which is why I had him getting so pissed off at the thought that Brian was going to hand him over to Declan. He’s not supposed to lose himself in this story; instead he finds a strength in learning more of who he truly is. Knowledge is power, after all.
g) Yes, Declan made a Spiderman reference…lol. Can you pick it out? I knew that you could. (That’s an ode to both Michael and Hal’s interests in the Spiderman comic books and movies.)
h) You probably noticed, but in case not - I harkened back to Brian’s answer to Michael’s “I don’t know where the fuck I belong” - the kiss that ended with Brian saying, “There, that’s where.” Sighhh… Not only does the man love Michael, he flat out tells him he belongs to/with him. Thud….
i) Michael’s repeating of Brian’s love mantra - “Brian doesn’t do love” - isn’t meant to mean he thinks Brian doesn’t love him. He just says it without thinking, because it is Brian’s broken record. It’s Brian’s journey in this story to make Michael (and himself) understand that it has never held true between them.
j) The surveys are used by serious scene players - and they cover both likes/dislikes and limits. I was going to include them more fully, but realized that I didn’t need to in the long run. Why talk about it when I could show it? Lol…. But know that a lot of what happens in the fic is dictated by the answers that both Brian and Michael gave to Declan and Ashton.
k) I always wanted Ashton to be an artist, but never wanted anyone to think I was setting him up as a Justin substitute - for “Rage,” etc. Hence why I chose sculpture as his chosen medium. (I’m an art historian, btw - and his sculptures are largely based on Michelangelo’s unfinished slave sculptures. The ones that look almost like the men are emerging from the marble by force of will, even while restrained from the freedom they seem to seek.)
l) Yes, some would think letting Brian play with him in front of Declan would be out of character for Michael. Here’s why I don’t think it’s such a problem. They are doing so for a specific reason - not on a whim. Brian certainly would have no qualms about public sex considering his history; in fact it would excite him. As long as it’s on his terms, as I have shown with his agreement with Declan that Michael not be touched in a sexual way by anyone but Brian. As for Michael, yes - it’s outside the norm - but so is the entire situation. And he has himself had sex in front of others, not being a stranger to Babylon’s backroom too.
m) This moment of play before Declan is meant to enforce Brian’s dominance, but also to show that ultimately Michael has the ultimate control. It’s called a safe word, darlins’…. And is a must have in any kind of scene play. As for why I chose “Zephyr” - think of what it means. How could I not?
n) The rooftop scene is a favorite of mine, and of soooo many others. I wanted to reference back to it, and this moment in the story seemed the most appropriate.
o) And never let it be said that Michael isn’t as into sex as Brian…lol. Once he gets the chance, he’s frisky and imaginative as anyone could be. And as naughty, as Brian finds out once Declan leaves.
Part Five:
a) Why does Brian answer the phone while he’s being ravaged by Michael? For the same reason he often answers the door naked….lol He ALWAYS DOES on the show…lol. Plus, it was fun to write.
b) It’s also fun to see how well Declan recognized himself in Brian, and vice-versa
c) Michael’s joke about his not having any more reservations about sticking his hands down Brian’s pants now - remember, due to my timeline - the whole cell phone down Brian’s pants on the way to the underwear party never happens - but it was too good a moment not to play off of….lol.
d) Want to see what Declan’s house looks like? Havenshire? Here you go…. (Just picture it in winter, rather than spring.)
http://www.rosecityrealty.com/images/residential/744910.jpg
e) As you can tell from the get go after they enter the house, they are not in Kansas anymore….lol. And while yes, I do have them doing wild and erotic things together - remember, it’s all about intimacy, love and experiencing new things within the realm of them still being Brian and Michael. Declan and Ash.
f) Naked Michael… It’s addictive…hehe. And very much a device on my part to open up his sense of inhibition, letting him feel the role as it were of a submissive. But in a way that never denigrates him in any of their eyes. If anything, the nudity leaves him in a position to be admired - literally and figuratively.
Part Six:
a) Let the games begin…lol. And they do, all this voyeurism and exhibitionism was fun to work with - but like Declan said - I wanted Brian and Michael’s first full sex scene to be about just them. Hence the “begin with love” conversation.
b) Brian’s cream leather and snake print silk…lol. He looked utterly edible in that outfit during the political fundraiser diner at David’s house. So I had to have him wear it again. For Michael…. THUD.
c) Don’t you love having a male character’s ability to last through two orgasms without losing his erection be a part of canon? Lol… I know Michael’s now appreciative. Sigh….
d) The kitchen scene was fun - because Michael’s been bad…lol, and is caught out doing it. And because I wanted there to be more one on one dialogue between him and Declan.
e) Can you guess why I had Michael tell Declan that Brian likes apple jelly? Lol…. Come on, it’s canon!
f) Brian’s robe - it’s one we’ve seen him in on the show. Luvly….
g) I have a tendency to sneak in Shakespeare quotes in a lot of my fics. Did you catch that? Lol…
h) Why a sauna? Because you have four naked men who all look fabulous sweaty and hot…haha.
i) I had the characters explain the tattoos I picked, but just wanted to add that I had a lot of fun creating them in my head. The permanence of their claim marked forever in their skin. It’s a beautiful thought.
j) I’ve been asked, “Why Darkling?” Welllll…. I liked the sound of it, and while it was the title of a movie that Aidan stared in, trust me when I say it isn’t meant as a reference to the creature in that film. It’s meant just as Declan describes - a nickname that originates from Ashton’s “other-worldly” sexual talents and his natural “saucy sprite” personality.
k) The hair washing? Come on…lol. With dark curls like that, it’s a given!!! Plus, we all seem to have a thing for that man’s hair. The massage? There are eastern forms of massages that incorporate the use of the entire body to use as a tool, instead of just the arms and hands, but really - the full effect can’t be done unless it gets sexual, imo…lol. So, considering Michael’s last two beaus were a chiropractor and a man eyebrow-deep in eastern culture - I figured between the two, Michael would have learned a thing or two about how to drive Brian wild.
Part Seven:
a) I had fun letting Michael and Brian get giddy in the snow. Especially knowing what Michael was wearing underneath his clothes….
b) I’m a huge fan of Laurell Hamilton’s Anita Blake books. And yes, I do realize that one of THE best (THUD!!!!) characters in her books is named Asher…lol. That was an afterthought which had me going, “OH Yeah!” So considering his name, and the themes you’ll find in her book, “Narcissus in Chains” - it seemed the perfect book for Ashton to be reading. (((I highly recommend the series!)))
c) Brian offers Michael an out before their first “scene” together. Which actually is only one of several opportunities that Michael is given to change his mind, halt things, etc. The point? It’s his choice that drives things.
d) So the secret’s out… The absolute worse that I have happen between Brian and Michael, isn’t bad at all…lol. So for anyone who didn’t read the fic because they thought it was going to be this extreme venture, here’s the proof in action that it is and was always going to be a journey of eroticism and sensuality. For those who went with my craziness - I’m thankful you held the faith.
e) I just had to add more back story to Michael’s first trip to the baths. Hence the blindfold discussion with Brian. Ahhhh….
f) I had a dream about the scene where Brian’s dressing a sleepy Michael in his sleep pants before leaving for the day. It just struck me as this simple, but deeply intimate and caring act - so I hope I brought it across as such.
g) Hehe…. Sooooo, now you know why Brian really went back to Pittsburgh. The office problems were real, but quickly dealt with. Sneaky, wasn’t he?
h) I wanted to give Ashton a hobby that he found as much joy and giddiness in as Michael with his comics. So it was a completely perfect choice for him to be a Star Trek fan…lol. (Trekkies UNITE!!!) Can’t you just see Ashton dragging Declan through a Star Trek convention? Like Michael does Brian through Comicon?
Part Eight:
a) Snicker, I challenge ANY of you to picture Aidan Gillen dressed up like Star Trek: The Next Generation’s Deanna Troi and NOT fall down laughing…lol.
b) Here was a chance to give you all a bit more insight into how Dec and Ash interact together. And to see how Ashton causes a lot of his own discipline. Sooooo, here’s your first toy link…lol. This is the chastity belt that Declan made Ashton wear. (Can you imagine him having to just sit there while Michael was modeling? Hehe) -
http://www.babeland.com/page/TIB/PROD/bdsm-bondage/DX490340
c) Declan’s photography - I always planned him doing a portrait of Michael, but I definitely didn’t want to present him as some nudie letch of a photographer…lol. He’s serious about his hobby, and he’s good at what he does. So I created the shadow play theme, which then lead to me realizing just how I wanted him to shoot Michael.
d) Had to have Michael initiate the request for his photograph to be made. Again, this reinforces his choice in all this. And it ultimately made me think about Brian’s taking pictures of Michael for his internet dating ad…lol. Considering the fun Michael knows Brian had with that, I thought he’d think this form of gift giving appropriate.
e) The love scene between Declan and Ash was a gift. For me, for Alexis and for the readers who fell in love with them both. But I did it with a switch, for Michael’s benefit. In order to challenge his notions of what Dominance and submission could mean in a loving long term relationship, Michael witnesses Declan bottoming from the top. Bareback… Which considering they’ve been together running on ten years, it gives them a level of freedom that Brian and Michael would frankly have to earn together - in trust, love and restraint from temptation.
f) Brian’s return - his witnessing the culmination of Dec/Ash together, and seeing how it affects both Michael and himself. Remember (for those of you who’ve read to the end) - he’s been busy reconstructing he and Michael’s lives back home, so coming back and walking in on that - it goes a long way to explaining why he wants something of Michael inside himself in turn.
g) Yes, folks. Brian gave Michael a command before he left, with included being physically prepared for him no matter when he was to return. So, what does that mean? hehe It means that the entire time Michael was posing for Declan, he was slicked and lubed inside for Brian. Now, doesn’t that add just a little bit more oomph to the impact of the final portrait? I know it does for Brian…lol.
h) The return of Michael’s cuffs - I wanted Michael to get a little of his own back, so why not wake up Brian by giving him his wakeup call - AFTER Michael’s tied his hands down…lol.
i) Brian’s feeling the full impact of his choice. Remember in the moment he‘s telling Michael he‘s going to collar him, he’s already met with Andre to design the piece. And set the motions into play for moving Michael into what will be their home….
j) Had to add in some sweet humor in all this seriousness and sensuality - which means? Yes, Ashton once again comes a knocking….lol. I’d planned on having a scene dinner, and just the image of Michael’s face when Ash throws in that question about ever having played naked waiter was just TOO funny.
k) The talk - I didn’t want to shy away from the impact of how each of them are responding to the changes between them. But how do you get them talking about it, and still keep their pov’s working with canon? I can only hope it worked.
Part Nine:
a) The boys needed some time together…meaning Michael and Ash. And boy oh boy did I give it to them…lol. This part was meant to be fantastical, and fun. So while the costumes may appear over the top to some, believe me - compared to some scene events, I was being tame!
b) More hinting between Brian and Declan about the items being created by Andre. And a moment of reflection on Brian’s part about what Michael means to him in the face of what others will say about their relationship. And like he says, ultimately Michael is his family - more than all the rest.
c) I put a lot of detail into Michael and Ashton’s individual looks, so I wanted to give you a more in-depth look-see as to some of the items they are wearing… Or rather, the pieces that inspired them. Some of which I embellished on for more added effect. So here goes:
Michael -
The underbust corset:
http://www.dracinabox.com/pvcunderbustcorset.htm
The O-Ring Posture collar:
http://www.absolutedanny.com/product_info.php?products_id=471
Ashton -
The leather gladiator skirt:
http://www.absolutedanny.com/product_info.php?products_id=212
And the inspiration for his painted on arm/neck tattoo:
http://home.earthlink.net/~markstewart/DuskPage.tattoo.html.
(Make sure the period “.“ is on the end of “html.” or you won’t be able to see the page.)
d) Had to have Declan being all masterly after dinner, didn’t I? Lol…. Plus, he DID say he was an exhibitionist - THUD!
e) Michael’s turning Brian’s command back on him, telling Brian to feel him inside. The two of them in front of the fire…. With Michael looking the way he does…. Yummy! Lol… Heck, even I enjoyed that… And that means…. It’s almost collar time!!!
Part Ten:
a) Isn’t Ash the cutest? Even if I do say so myself…. “Elmo” indeed…lol.
b) Wanted to include a mention of Michael’s continuing dream for “Rage.” And just think, the whole time he’s playing with clay and writing - Brian’s doing what in the Pits??? Lol…
c) The collaring - I could have gone the formal route, and had a ritualized ceremony. But I decided they needed something familiar and true to who they are together, hence the return where the story began.
d) The collar - it’s actually similar to Native American necklaces. The platinum links stacked three high, attached to leather lengths. And the shells - how could I not reclaim the bracelet we all know and love?
e) The cuff - Michael deserved to have Brian wear a mark of their claim, too!
f) The toy…lol. We all know from the show that Brian’s a big fan of sex toys; ever one to enjoy adding some spice to things. Wanna take a look at what Brian’s teasing Michael with the next morning?
http://www.babeland.com/page/TIB/PROD//TG355190
g) Declan’s reference to the ash wood paddles…lol. How could I resist? It was so appropriate, I had to include it.
h) I was looking forward to Michael’s giving Brian his gift… But then I remembered it was my job to actually WRITE it…lol. There are moments in creating a story when you feel like you’d much rather be reading it, rather than having to smooth it out line by line. So I think I got it right, let’s hope so.
Part Eleven:
a) The goodbye between our couples - it’s not an ending, it’s a beginning. They have every intention of remaining friends. Can’t you just imagine them all hitting Woody’s or Babylon together? Meeting Temmet? And saints preserve them, Debbie and Vic? Lol…
b) Just when you thought it was safe to visit the local diner…lol.
c) The humor in the hallway to Brian’s loft - it was just running through my head and I had to go with it. Plus, who doesn’t like a sexually demanding Michael?
d) Surprise!!! Welcome to the home of the Kinney-Novotny’s…. Do you like the decor? I started with the basic layout:
http://www.angelfire.com/home/qaf/theloft.html
And then worked to incorporate Michael’s style and all that we knew about his stuff together in with Brian’s world. I quite liked the result in my mind’s eye. Did you?
I hope you enjoyed the story, the journey and the ride.
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Xof
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Well, I am stunning...lol. (That may have been Ashton talking.)
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please more!
it is everything i could have possibly asked for in a brian and mikey story and how i feel they should make it happen darnit!
i truly love the way youve expressed all the longing and heartache they both have felt and how giddy they can get to know they are now where they are supposed to be..
thank you for letting me enjoy the ride of my two favorite guys finally gettin on with it, im sure the writers of the series could do no better!
now i just have one tiny thing to ask..
is there any way you can do an epilouge.. or two or three?
i would just loovvee to see brian n michael interact with the other guys or maybe go out somewhere together .. but i want emmett and ted n alla them to see how Right those two are together, to have michael finally happy and safe and secure in the knowledge that brian is his and he has nothing to worry about, and for them to see how caring and loving and protective brian can get over mikey..
please!
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Ahh, you're a sweetie, really.
Sequel, epilogue - hmmm, we'll have to see. Right now, I'm still tried and winding down from having finished this baby.
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xof
From: (Anonymous)
Encompassed - late f/b #1
So here goes … f/b to your notes. ;-)
Part One:
>>>In a way I think it’s a shame that you need to apply a ‘Warning’ to any of your BDSM stories – I’m sure the label prevents some from reading what in my mind has become, because of you, what BDSM should be. About love, and submission, and giving over, and letting taking and giving being faces of the same coin and *never* about pain or unwanted attention.
As you know the US show has never captured my attention as the UK did, but *your* characterisations of Brian and Michael (and the others) has always made sense to me, actions and personality developments that are more than plausible, not just something thrown in out of left field to suit your own fantasies.
And this story especially, is one that I can believe and *see*. Brian dominant (caring, protective) and Michael submissive (in so far as Brian will accept him).
Part Two:
Logical and following series canon plot progression – even with only the single screening of the show that I’ve watched, certain personality traits and memories just jumped out me.
Part Three:
As long as I’m watching, either or suits me just fine, as long as the clothes come OFF … yum indeedy. lol
No matter how old we get, or grown-up, or know better – we still, all of us, from time to time do things we really shouldn’t and with luck, have survived fairly unscathed for the fall-out. And in this case, in his need for what exactly he’s not even sure of yet himself, and his own basic trusting nature would be precisely what would lead a naïve Mikey into such a situation.
And how I *adore* your voyeurism … you certainly ‘showed’ me over the years and I’m still watching.
I also had no problems with Brian seeking ‘help/advice’ – the *earlier* Brian certainly would (I liked him better anyway) and in this instance, where what and how he gives Mikey what he needs, he would want to get it right – Brian never does anything by halves.
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Encompassed - late f/b #2
I think you used the perfect pictures to build your OCs on … the looks shown are exactly how Dec and Ash turn out to be … especially the imp in *Ash*.
I’m sure you know and knew, that I would be/am absolutely in love with Ash and in lust with Dec.
I think staying with the Michael/Mikey was much better than giving Michael a ‘scene’ name – the two variations suit the needs perfectly, nothing else was required.
“He’s a sexual dominant that’s all goodness and paradise…lol.” Oh my yes! I had to smile at Dec’s need for everything in its place and a place for everything … when Ash was explaining how he was more than ready to jump into slave status but Dec wanted it all in writing.
Oh, I caught the Forster right off hehe. And the reference to the ‘key that locks and unlock’ and to ‘opposing energies’ – Ash is certainly all of that and more. Boundless energy yes the capacity to be completely still/calm. That energy that brings on the storm in Dec, only to have Dec find his peace in Ash’s total submission. Ya done good, woman! ;-)
I’m glad you didn’t let Michael become ‘submissive’ in his ‘submission’ … in all things, be it gay men or men in their respective roles the operative word is and always should be ‘men’. Secure in their own selves, and making choices.
Those lines: “I don’t know where the fuck I belong” - “There, that’s where.” That was the most telling and THUD and romantic. I mean ‘how can anyone not SEE?’, not KNOW? - right up there with “It was good enough for me.”
I was most interested in the ‘surveys’ (and yes, detailing the answers by showing rather than telling was definitely the better way to go *pant*) I always appreciate how you show the reality of the scene, and not just go off in some delusional fantastic personal wish.
Strange, at no time when you mentioned anything of art, or sci-fi, or comics did Justin come to mind … this fic was SO completely Brian and Michael. But now that you mention ‘Rage’ you obviously made the right choices.
Sex in front of Declan – necessary and believable. All the US boys have had their times in the ‘back room’ and the ‘saunas’, Michael included. And the act would have really showed Michael that he could trust Brian in his request that no-one else touch him.
Ah that ‘safe word’ … always good to remind readers of that – the readers and the participants in the scene. I’ll say it again, I LOVE the way you show Dom/Sub, that control goes both ways.
Of course Michael likes sex … he’s initiated some pretty hot interactions over time, both with what’s his name chiropractor and Ben.
Part Five:
Oooo, nice house. )
It’s always about intimacy, love and experiencing new things within the realm – that’s what makes *your* tales so delicious and even when they go into places I have never tread you light the way.
Naked Michael – giving over but being proud – can’t beat that.
Part Six:
“Begin and end with love” – Nothing will ever say it better than that, and if I ever dare write a proper D/s fic I will probably use that as a title.
Saunas …. Mirrors … sexy men … anytime!
What wonderful tattoos - the design, the act, and the meaning. sigh
Ash was completely delightful. A sub/slave with so much “joie de vive” and the freedom to drive his Master crazy – what more could I want.
Hair washing and massages … hey, we like that in both fandoms. *grin*
Part Seven:
Narcissus in Chains? Perfect choice for Ashton. And with the characters you built, somehow I can imagine him reading it out loud in bed to Dec … the things a Master must endure. LOL
I like that you gave Michael (and Brian) several opportunities to change his mind, and make them both think about what and where they were going – it is, after all, a life choice, and should not be taken lightly.
Eroticism and sensuality. --- I never had any worries. I’m just sad we couldn’t have MORE!
Star Trek conventions and Comicons … nothing emphasises the duality of who’s in charge more than what a Dom/Master will do *for* his sub/slave.
From: (Anonymous)
Encompassed - late f/b #3
Ah, I might fall down laughing, but I’ll bet he’d make as ‘hot’ a broad as Michael did. Phht!
My only regret is that we never really got to see any of that discipline that Ash was SO good at asking for … holding still and chastity belts notwithstanding.
That photograph is one I sure would like to see, even more I’d have liked to see Dec take it and Michael pose.
The scene with Dec topping from the bottom, Ash shagging Dec – wonderful, THUD, and you couldn’t have come up with a better way to show the duality of D/s.- that in order for one to ‘give over’, so does the other.
Always a hot thought … having a lad *ready* at all times. That’s a drool and a half for sure.
I can’t make any informed comment on US canon, other than to say the dialogue and interactions *always* sounded *right* - it was never a stretch of my imagination to fit *your* characters into those portrayed in the series.
Part Nine:
Michael and Ash play and dress-up --- oh I do like your mind. The outfit you put Michael into … well let me just say this … THUD!
And what can I say about Ash’s leather ‘skirt’ – easy access – hooboy!
Part Ten:
Yes Ash is the cutest! Hehe And when (you’ll note I say when not if) you write more to this story, I hope you’ll allow Michael’s sense of playfulness and humour expand even more … after all, he should do his share of driving Brian crazy.
The collaring and the cuff … definitely canon in keeping it private between the two. Though perhaps at some point in their future they could make a public demonstration.
Ash paddles? Well, of course you did. How could you not?
Part Eleven:
The return ‘home’ and the ‘coming home’ – wonderful, warm, well-done.
>>>>I hope you enjoyed the story, the journey and the ride.<<<<
Enjoyed it! Loved it! From start to finish! I want to add too, that with your ability to create such well-rounded OCs – well, you should be writing original fiction!!!!!! You rock, lady. Always.
Thank you for sharing. - Margo
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Ooops
Twas Dec riding Ash, and not topping from below - all I had in my memory was that Ash was the one inside of Dec.
I thought I had this story engraved in my mind, obviously I was wrong. And the perfect 'punishment' for such an error is to go and read it all again. sigh The work of a reader is never done. - Margo