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I'm having a not so good night. Pissy mood, sad. Woke up feeling this way, and have done through the day.
I'm stressed out, and some would say (have said) that it's not healthy.
Besides RL, which is more than a bit dramatic and mad - I'm in a position now where I want to write, but don't seem up to it. I have put my hat into the Stuart/Vince sequel challenge ring - and I haven't even started. I have to finish a wedding gift I'm working on for my boss' wedding at the end of April. Cross-stitching, while beautiful - is time consuming. Min. of four hours a day on the gift, and that's after working all day - with overtime. (And don't tell me to buy a gift, I don't have the money. Such is my broken record in life.)
So I've got ideas for a fic in my Dream Series, but I can't write now because of the gift. I have a deadline for the S/V fic I haven't even started. And come April 18th, Season Four of QAF starts. Which means recaps....
And I have a problem. I love my recaps. I enjoy the way I write them. The humor and snarkiness that I don't get to share in any other way but with them. But do you realize it usually takes me six or more hours per episode to do even one recap?
It cuts off all my "me" time after work, eats up days of my focus. I've done them for three years and I want to do the eps coming up, but I'm ... mixed up about it.
They shouldn't be work, they should be fun. But that fun, folks - takes alot of work.
I can't write until they are done, and now I'm suppose to be writing - but they are looming to take my time away from writing soon.
I want to do them, and I don't. There are so many times I just want to watch the damn show and not have the responsibility of doing the recaps. But then, I like the recaps when they are done. I like hearing what others say, though truthfully not that many have anything to say anyway.
I created this position for myself three years ago, and now I'm tired. My enjoyment of the show is still high. I "like" it.
I don't know what to do. I want to, I don't.
Any thoughts?
Sorry to ramble. Wish it had been more entertaining for you.
xof
I'm stressed out, and some would say (have said) that it's not healthy.
Besides RL, which is more than a bit dramatic and mad - I'm in a position now where I want to write, but don't seem up to it. I have put my hat into the Stuart/Vince sequel challenge ring - and I haven't even started. I have to finish a wedding gift I'm working on for my boss' wedding at the end of April. Cross-stitching, while beautiful - is time consuming. Min. of four hours a day on the gift, and that's after working all day - with overtime. (And don't tell me to buy a gift, I don't have the money. Such is my broken record in life.)
So I've got ideas for a fic in my Dream Series, but I can't write now because of the gift. I have a deadline for the S/V fic I haven't even started. And come April 18th, Season Four of QAF starts. Which means recaps....
And I have a problem. I love my recaps. I enjoy the way I write them. The humor and snarkiness that I don't get to share in any other way but with them. But do you realize it usually takes me six or more hours per episode to do even one recap?
It cuts off all my "me" time after work, eats up days of my focus. I've done them for three years and I want to do the eps coming up, but I'm ... mixed up about it.
They shouldn't be work, they should be fun. But that fun, folks - takes alot of work.
I can't write until they are done, and now I'm suppose to be writing - but they are looming to take my time away from writing soon.
I want to do them, and I don't. There are so many times I just want to watch the damn show and not have the responsibility of doing the recaps. But then, I like the recaps when they are done. I like hearing what others say, though truthfully not that many have anything to say anyway.
I created this position for myself three years ago, and now I'm tired. My enjoyment of the show is still high. I "like" it.
I don't know what to do. I want to, I don't.
Any thoughts?
Sorry to ramble. Wish it had been more entertaining for you.
xof
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